Sometimes your story isn’t the Legends of the Fall or Last
of the Mohicans, or God forbid, The Notebook.
It isn’t extravagant and wild -dancing in a thunderstorm. It doesn’t come with a flash and a bang like
fireworks exploding in a summer night sky.
Sometimes it doesn’t overwhelm you, suffocate you, and flood your
being. No… sometimes it comes slowly…
creeping steadily into the facets of your normal everyday… filling in cracks of
time that you didn’t know were vacant… taking up your Friday nights, weekend
afternoons and your days. It comes in
the form of cooking meals together after work.
Running errands. Going to the
gym. Watching a Redbox on the couch. Doing yardwork. Normal life...
And one day you realize that your time and thoughts and even
heart have been infiltrated … and it doesn't look anything like you thought it
would.
Does anything look like we thought it would?
Finding your purpose?
Building your Career? Meeting
your someone? Making a difference? Raising a family? Do any of our ambitions pan out the way we expected? No… often, it is harder, messier, and more
rewarding than any of our fairy tale dreams.
And that is life: a slow, unraveling story different and
better than your most cherished expectations.
Sometimes it drags and you don’t know what the Author is doing or
thinking. You want to shout: “Get to the point already! What is happening with these characters?! Where is this story going?!!” You
want to put it down and pick up something more stimulating. You want suspense and drama! You desire heated romance and death defying
feats. You turn to other things looking
for your cravings to be met… but when you remain unsatisfied, you concede and
pick up the story again. And what you
get is the steady revealing of dynamic characters whose end is unclear and to
whom anything is possible.
There are days (many in fact) where I wish I could read the
Sparks Notes on my life- where I wish I could skip to the synopsis and see, in
a glance, the beginning, middle and end.
Just to know. But there is
something lifegiving about the uncertainty. The maybe’s and possibilities. Especially
when I know and trust the Author. I have
faith in His ability to write a worthy and excellent story. He is not a novice writer fumbling
with paper and pen. He is the Great
Storymaker. And I am blessed to be a
character written on to the pages of His grand tale.
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And so, I take heart.
When life is uncertain and feels monotonous and dull… when I don’t know
the next turn in the plot or how long I’ll be walking down this dusty, barren
road… when I wonder “Where is this story going?!” and lose interest … I remember: Sometimes the best things
come slowly… and I patiently (and painfully) pick myself back up and try to
turn another page.